STONE HEART

My heart is STONE COLD!!! I have always had a hard time liking people but now it seems I`m a hater of my own family members. Yes, it`s true I`ve joined the ranks of  "outlaws"nstead of "inlaws"..... For instance my lil sis had a heart attack and I told her very busy husband we`d take care of her. He replied " she`s my wife I WILL TAKE CARE OF HER!!! What an ass- Men are ridiculous and THAT is  why I don`t want one. AND, No I`m not a carpet muncher. So, to top things off, my brother has a heart attack. 5 days later no one heard from him (he was keeping in touch daily) so I call him (we are not close and have no relationship) at 12:00 and say I`m in the area and wanted to come over. No answer. I called at 5pm. no answer. I called at 8:30 pm no answer. I imagined him on the floor dead or waiting for help, totally immobile. So, I drove there and thank God, no car there which meant he`s alive. Next morning I went to see him thinking maybe we could start a true relationship.Hello!!! Boy was I wrong!!!!! I said "HI" He began to ream me out a new one!! What ??? It`s not always about you! What were your frantic calls about? are you crazy? You got 3 people with heart attacks stressed out! I`m 60 I don`t have to check in with YOU when I go somewhere!! My heart sunk and all I muster up was "I`ll leave you alone". As I walked out he was still yelling at me. I started crying and made damn sure he heard. I got in my car crying BUT within 5 minutes I remembered my daughter`s motto "STAY BRUTAL" and my hurt turned to anger. Another person has failed me. And that is why I titled this STONE HEART!